{"id":3419,"date":"2010-09-06T07:18:43","date_gmt":"2010-09-06T11:18:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.forgetful.ca\/?p=3419"},"modified":"2010-09-06T07:18:43","modified_gmt":"2010-09-06T11:18:43","slug":"day-115-letting-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/?p=3419","title":{"rendered":"Day 115 – Letting go…"},"content":{"rendered":"

A few days from now Jaia will be starting school.\u00a0 Junior Kindergarten.\u00a0 A big step.\u00a0 One she can’t wait for, and one I don’t know how I’m going to handle.\u00a0 There may be tears.\u00a0 Or should I say there will be tears.\u00a0 And not necessarily from her.<\/p>\n

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I feel like a minute and a half ago she was placed in my arms as a newborn and then I blinked and 3 and a half years passed.\u00a0 I find myself staring at her now with a lump in my throat.\u00a0 She’s grown up so much.\u00a0 She can write all of her ABCs and is starting to string letters together to make words.\u00a0 She can get her own drink from the fridge now and can dress herself.\u00a0 She’ll spend hours completing puzzles. \u00a0She likes computers. \u00a0A curious little one, she questions everything.\u00a0 She’s so independent, not wanting mama or daddy to help her anymore – \u00a0with almost anything.\u00a0 But then, as we walk down the street I still feel her tiny hand take mine and my heart beats just a little faster as I realize that the days of us holding hands this way aren’t going to last forever.<\/p>\n

Soon enough she’ll want to do everything on her own.\u00a0 And holding her mama’s hand won’t be cool anymore.\u00a0 And school is where this all starts.\u00a0 It’s her first real venture out into the world by herself.\u00a0 Her first chance to gain her own identity, her own friends, her own self.\u00a0 I couldn’t be more proud of her right now.\u00a0 Or of myself and Dan for raising this little miss who I don’t only love because she’s my daughter, but also because of who she has become.\u00a0 She’s such a sweet, sensitive, caring little person.\u00a0 I feel so lucky that she’s mine.<\/p>\n

The next two weeks will be a real challenge for this mama.\u00a0 An exercise in letting go.\u00a0 We are stepping into uncharted territory.\u00a0 A new world.\u00a0 Exciting and terrifying all at the same time.\u00a0 All the friends and family I’ve talked to about this tell me she’s ready.\u00a0 She’s more than ready.\u00a0 Problem is\u2026I’m not sure I am.\u00a0 But as we walk towards school on her first day and I take her tiny hand in mine as I take a deep breath, nervous about what lies ahead, she’ll reassure me that she’ll be ok. \u00a0I know she will. \u00a0But will i?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A few days from now Jaia will be starting school.\u00a0 Junior Kindergarten.\u00a0 A big step.\u00a0 One she can’t wait for, and one I don’t know how I’m going to handle.\u00a0 There may be tears.\u00a0 Or should I say there will be tears.\u00a0 And not necessarily from her. I feel like a minute and a half […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0},"categories":[26,28,29,36],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3419"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3419"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3419\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3419"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3419"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3419"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}