I’m leaving tomorrow and I’m not yet mentally prepared to leave Jaia for that long.\u00a0 Yes, she’s home with her dad.\u00a0 Yes, there’s no better place for her to be.\u00a0 Yes, she’ll be safe and happy and will barely notice that I’m gone.\u00a0 But it’s me I’m worried about.<\/p>\n
I’ve never spent more than two night away in her short 28 months.\u00a0 And though she was home and happy, I thought about her constantly.\u00a0 I think we truly take spending time with our kids for granted.\u00a0 On the longest days, we are more than grateful when bedtime rolls around.\u00a0 We can finally relax, kick up our feet,\u00a0enjoy an adult conversation with our spouse or watch a television show without being distracted.<\/p>\n
But more often than not, I miss having her there\u00a0after \u00a0she’s safely tucked into bed and off in dreamland.\u00a0 I had a child, not because it was the next thing to do in life, but because I really wanted to be a mom.\u00a0 I like it.\u00a0 I like watching her grow and change\u00a0and ask questions and learn new things and, most recently and best of all, \u00a0crack jokes.\u00a0 She makes me laugh constantly and Dan and I suddenly find ourselves sneaking glances at each other at the hilarious and such grown-up sounding things she comes up with.\u00a0<\/p>\n
And the changes happen fast.\u00a0 And I’m gone for 6 full nights.\u00a0 That might seem\u00a0like nothing, and before you know it I’ll be back, but to me, 6 nights away is an eternity.\u00a0 I’m already trying to plan phone call timing to make sure I can have a chat with her every day and will be scoping out the internet caf\u00e9s in the area to be able to check in on them via forgetful.ca –\u00a0which I was assured would be updated regularly.<\/p>\n
Don’t get me wrong, I’m super pumped about getting away, being away and seeing a part of the world I’ve always wanted to see…I just know I’m going to miss my bean.\u00a0 A lot.\u00a0 In preparation, I’ve\u00a0written her a card for her to open each morning that I’m away – and was sneaky enough to include stickers\u00a0 (puffy Winnie the Pooh and Finding Nemo stickers) for her sticker book so she’d be extra excited to open every one of them.\u00a0 I mean, she is only 2 and is not likely get overly emotional about the written word – but she will jump up and down for new stickers.\u00a0 I found happy middle ground.<\/p>\n
So that’s where I stand.\u00a0 Very excited to get on a plane and get the hell out of Dodge, but a little anxious about leaving Jaia (and Dan) behind.\u00a0 But I’ll be ok.\u00a0 And we’ll make it work.\u00a0 On the tough days they may get two (or three) phonecalls instead of one.\u00a0 And although I haven’t been there and won’t be able to confirm until the weekend, but something tells me ample amounts of French wine and delicious cheese and bread will help soothe the pain…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I’m leaving tomorrow and I’m not yet mentally prepared to leave Jaia for that long.\u00a0 Yes, she’s home with her dad.\u00a0 Yes, there’s no better place for her to be.\u00a0 Yes, she’ll be safe and happy and will barely notice that I’m gone.\u00a0 But it’s me I’m worried about. I’ve never spent more than two […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0},"categories":[26,47],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1450"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1450"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1450\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1450"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1450"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/forgetful.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1450"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}